hi anne,
its nice to write to you. hope you are doing fine.
i have been going through a lot of dilemmas .sometimes you end up in situations when you have no right choices. no right directions to take.i have had one such issue which has been not exactly bothering me but got to deal with it someday right. it is always said to be best left to time maybe
but i donno what solutions time can get along with it .i don't understand this mindset we all have inherited things should always be right. i myself am a victim to this syndrome.i guess its ok for things to be not fine. actually dont feel anything about it. i am trying to do something just for this mindset my sense has not provoked me for anything. so, i guess i just need to stop acting like this.
love,
chinmayi.s.k

i am bored ....

hi anne,
how have u been??
its been such a boring day.start was pretty good my daughter woke me up and i found the problem with this stupid laptop and got to know how to fix bugs and all. ok i know i sound like a nerd :).seriously after that its pretty boring i got no work to do.i finished my work yesterday and no fresh work. i seriously cant live without work . for me every minute should go as planned i plan work everyday.mind being idle is never acceptable.i get an headache :).i know people who can stay days together without doing anything.i will probably go mad if that happens.ok pls someone give me work.where has all the work in the world gone.i want to do something productive i want to complete my plans for this quarter god pls help me.anne pls pls do something or i will go mad.
love,
chinmayi.s.k

strangers

hi anne,
there are many instances in life when you come across strangers who go on to become a special part of your life.there are many i have met in my journey of life.many who have become a integral part of my life. they have been the greatest gifts life has given me and i treasure them.all of them might not be a big part of my life they might just be omens. i have had a few of them recently.
i was almost convinced that my city has lost its hospitable nature after what i saw.i dare not to even repeat such stuff. no, sooner i had two angels to prove me wrong.i was walking from my office to mg road i did not know my way and was wondering if i could make it. no sooner i found a lady walking in the same direction i decided to ask for help and she gladly not just directed me but also walked a extra mile we chatted through various topics. i remember those days in Bangalore when ppl needed no reason to speak to each other friends were easy to make.it was so good to have met her and had that talk through Richmond town.
the other stranger was a little kid of 10 years old he and his friends were playing in front of my house.i went out to look at these kids play.i just said a hi and in no time these kids became my friend we started playing all sorts of games . it felt like returning to childhood. i wished i could be like these kids just be able to trust anyone and mingle with them without thinking twice.
have no fears what so ever with every step i take .
love,
chinmayi.s.k

constraints

many time most of us don't do what we love to do it is not for any reason but our choices it might be sensible to make such a choice the right way to do it .where have you lost it what is right and what is wrong who decides who said you cant decipher anything the way you want have you forgotten that this way of discovering is the best achievement you can make .everyone need not feel right about the same thing the same way the reason we are here are not to be machines but to evolve in our own ways not constrained.there is no rule in nature that is why it is so beautiful it sets its own ideals but never imposes rules.the feeling of doing what u want to do always makes the most beautiful colours those that result from ones imagination can never be bet.its your own no one can defeat your dreams nothing can defeat you in your perception your way . dream on go to realise it paint your own potrait use ur own colours use your own tools lets c who can stop u...
love,
chinmayi.s.k

Darfur

hi anne,
how have u been??
Darfur i recently stumbled upon this name while flipping through the newspaper a few days ago.There is so much violence these days that you tend to overlook a lot of it and we as humans would love to live in an illusion "what ever bad happens will never occur to us" just a matter of convenience to not face the truth. I might be this one strange creature who is attracted to this misery i don't know makes me read such articles. I read quite a lot of such stuff. I was recently wondering about the UN peace keeping missions in africa and what was happening in this mystery continent . mystery because most of these countries seem to have a iron curtain.So, when i saw Sudan in the article i was eager to read more.
This article had three unusual terms oil, China and US. I decided to probe more on this issue . i saw quite a few versions of this issue one the official UN version and the sudans goverment version.the other version was by the press and the agencies that worked in Darfur.
If the press and the agencies are to be believed something very wrong is happening here which sets me thinking when ever i desire for some sort of luxury no matter how simple the luxury is like that of oil which we use so liberally every day.Darfur has become a sufferer for insatiable thirst of the crude oil by the so called "advanced countries ". while, the whole world is moving towards better economies and better living standards. The people of this place are barely struggling to stay alive they are definitely burning in this greed of the so called "better world".and no one is protecting this world just because doing so would harper their growth .how could stealing the childhood of thousands of children, inducing fear of life in millions of people get you a better life even if you would can u rest at peace in the night after knowing how many are suffering just for you .

love,
chinmayi.s.k

the UN side of the story
the other side of the story 1
the other side of the story 2
oxfam the agency working in sudan

(a google search on darfur will give countless number of them)

dew drops on a fresh green leaf

lets start by sharing a morning i would love to live everyday.
On a slightly cloudy day when the sun rays are just warm enough to make their presence felt.As the sun rises i wake up gently by the nudging of my little princess my daughter. I freshen up and take a long walk in the huge garden which bears flowers through out the year with dew drops on their tender petals and a fragrance so fresh that nothing can replace the calmness it provides. Trees so huge that the sun in the afternoon sky has to show it self to earth in bits and pieces in such a way that each ray of it looks like distinct feature of the garden.my destination is a stream with fresh blue water chilled enough to be refreshing and with a pace that keeps me afloat while the sun rays fill warmth in me . I turn into a silent observer going with the pace of nature listening to the chirping sounds of the awakening birds and the flowing stream and filling my senses with the smells of blooming flowers. With nothing to think or plan .when i am contended i head back to cook something very delicious then i head to the woods hiking to find new places to read a book or two while i experience mother nature to the extent .
love you,
chinmayi.s.k

hang over

hi anne,
how have u been??
ok now comes the worst part after all the fun and some passive time it is such a horrible phase.god save me i cant handle this when i "analyse" things and remember things and put the blame on myself in spite of the truth that every one is to blame equally now, i am going to start feeling that i was the one who ripped everything of and then how horribly i handle every situation and that i am a looser god... guilt is one major thing i always feel and the worst part i carry it through out my life i wish i can do some thing about this stupid thing [:)].i want to start afresh completely skip this phase what say ??
ok where do we begin a new page ... ok sure meet you there ... bye
love,
chinmayi.s.k