little things

hi anne,
how are you doing??
i am doing ok sort..
you know little things that we do brings so much happiness to our lives. nostalgia hit me now when i saw the vayam website. god, those were the times we missed classes for a cause,worked singularly for a cause nothing else was on our minds except the goal. The goal of giving those little friends of ours a life we always dreamt of . when every breath was filled with that goal.. each one of us probably for the first time in our lives had a mission,direction and were inspired to work towards something that is nothing for self. those were the days that still swells my heart with pride of being a responsible youth of trying to change something we wished to ,rather than to sit and crib.every one was so committed and if any one of us lost spirit the team lent it. in fact there was no time when the spirits could go low at all.that was a movement not just a silly trend a movement to awaken to the potential to the possibility the positive energy the moment to realise the amount of love we all possessed and that no one can stop us if we awaken
those were one of the best days of my life and the whole team no one dares to deny it that was one of those times when our parents felt proud of us when we earned respect among our peers and love from a lot of people.as one of my friends said " we tried to give something back to the society but what did we know that we would get hundred times back." this is my humble request to all my peers try your best to make a difference it matters a lot to a lot of people .every soul on earth is important ,we realize it or not a drop of water cannot make an ocean but without every drop coming together there is no ocean.
love ,
chinmayi.s.k
http://vayamsadaiv.org

nothing at all

hi anne,
how have u been??
do you know how much i love him god my days and nights are filled with him.
everything reminds me of him.he makes me complete lying in his arms and feeling his warmth kills every negativity in me it only reminds me of how much love is there in the world makes me unaware of anything else on the contrary.
imagine someone singing their feeling of love to you how often do people do that. when someone on sings
"Its amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you dont say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
Theres a truth in your eyes saying youll never leave me
The touch of your hand says youll catch me when ever I fall
You say it best..when you say nothing at all "

it transports you to a different world thats the best one can get.
he some how reads through me realizes all my dreams he knows every breath i take even before i actually take it. I feel living a dream all the time i spend with him.it so lovely. he says a thousand things with everything he does.i feel like singing to him " you say it best when you say nothing at all".
love,
chinmayi.s.k

"chinmayi the puzzle -hints can be found here"

hi anne,
how are you doing??
i donno how to describe what i am feeling i wish u could see me making all sorts of faces .i feel strange wicked and spooky. its one strange thing to experience.
you know what one of my friends told me that i should write a blog or create a website called "chinmayi the puzzle -hints can be found here" ( thats so funny). she also told me that people will forget the meaning of hints :D . it made me laugh out loud god i know it is kinda true . i donno why but i love to get difficult to people who get close to me perhaps my mother is the lone person who is spared of this.i love being a challenge every moment and set you thinking.don't ask me reasons. i also love ppl who can face it i treasure them like hell off late i think i am becoming vulnerable by exposing this self . i mean it makes them love me and also makes them stay away from me. i love for them to discover me at the same time i completely change when i think some one is close enough to discover..
love ,
chinmayi.s.k

reality check

hi anne,
donno what is right what is not..what to trust what not to..
to believe why my heart says or what my thinking says.
in fact i dont want to dwell anymore cant there be another miracle??
it was so much fun to experience that sweet life (let me tell u secret anne i really wish all my life went like that) . he is like peter to me .i love him and this love is going to cost me a lot.i just want to get away from all this i want to get back to my goals. i donno if i will ever dare to love anyone i wish some one just rescues me. its painfull whatever i say. but, i know no one apart from has the courage to undergo this (i guess thats the reason i always end up in such situations).give strength like always to pass through this
love,
chinmayi.s.k

hi anne
i dont know how i get involved in all such stuff i am trying to dream impossibly .each time i try to fit in it never happens i know i am cursed and will never have a normal life why do i even try to have one.its no ones fault neither mine nor others .my life was supposed to be meant like this let not give me happiness at all its so much better than giving me it and then snatching it away.i just donno i never want anyone to be why am i like this. i hate it .i hate myself . let me be be why do u do this. i love u anne

head over heels

hi anne,
i feel so lovely.i can feel his wet lips smooching me so deep that i don't want to leave that world .his sweet voice whispering the bliss full words "i love you" i skip a heart beat whenever he says that. his warmth completes me he always says i make him feel complete what does he know that i was never so complete.I feel like telling him sweet heart ,you have filled my world with so much love i don't know how many life times it is going to take me to completely experience every bit you have offered me.you make me love you more with every moment i spend with you.i miss you every moment i am not with you .i want to dream my every dream with you.i love you loads (muahh!!)

anne i am so glad i met him he always makes me feel so comfortable he vanishes all my fears even before i can start feeling them.i miss him terribly.thank god things changed for all the reasons god know i am happy those days of solitude bore a fruit a very sweet one whose taste is so ecstatic
love,
chinmayi.s.k

i dont know i dont care probably i do care

hi anne,
i donno what is happening it is just happening i don't like it thats it last week was a bliss.Those four days i forgot everything i did what made me happy forgot about idiots forgot about all dependancies in fact had none i did not have to bother about any body for anything did have to think before i do could think at my own wish . no one to stop me from being me . i did not have to care if someone loves me or not. i could just stand by and experience go with the sync.
i donno anne , i just don't want to write anymore.the guy i loved i dont want to love him anymore we are leading different paths he is leading his and i mine. he probably has better relationships with my so called "friends" than me.god knows whats in store for me.i just want to live the path of the journey with no questions no answers just experience and experience it to the max live with sync.basically live in peace how would u like an idea like that :).
awesome right
love,
chinmayi.s.k

sweet beginings

hi anne,
how have u been?
you know how much i love to sleep in the mornings .well,yesterday i slept late(at 6:00or so) which i love to do whenever i can.i love the nights there is something that attracts me to it the silence
and peace of the night.the cool breeze of the trees it is soo romantic... The way it calms you down and gives you a different sort of energy i love it.given a chance i would probably convert night to days and vice versa(:)).morning sleeps too have a beauty to it the freshness of the sleep is a experience by itself .Imagine with all this beauty you get to listen to the voice of your sweet heart and begin your day.well that way today.i felt so glad he called i love him to the core.his voice always rekindles the love in my heart .That steady spirit ,that kind heart and the strong persona its difficult not to get attracted (not my fault is it ? :)).
love,
chinmayi