Darfur

hi anne,
how have u been??
Darfur i recently stumbled upon this name while flipping through the newspaper a few days ago.There is so much violence these days that you tend to overlook a lot of it and we as humans would love to live in an illusion "what ever bad happens will never occur to us" just a matter of convenience to not face the truth. I might be this one strange creature who is attracted to this misery i don't know makes me read such articles. I read quite a lot of such stuff. I was recently wondering about the UN peace keeping missions in africa and what was happening in this mystery continent . mystery because most of these countries seem to have a iron curtain.So, when i saw Sudan in the article i was eager to read more.
This article had three unusual terms oil, China and US. I decided to probe more on this issue . i saw quite a few versions of this issue one the official UN version and the sudans goverment version.the other version was by the press and the agencies that worked in Darfur.
If the press and the agencies are to be believed something very wrong is happening here which sets me thinking when ever i desire for some sort of luxury no matter how simple the luxury is like that of oil which we use so liberally every day.Darfur has become a sufferer for insatiable thirst of the crude oil by the so called "advanced countries ". while, the whole world is moving towards better economies and better living standards. The people of this place are barely struggling to stay alive they are definitely burning in this greed of the so called "better world".and no one is protecting this world just because doing so would harper their growth .how could stealing the childhood of thousands of children, inducing fear of life in millions of people get you a better life even if you would can u rest at peace in the night after knowing how many are suffering just for you .

love,
chinmayi.s.k

the UN side of the story
the other side of the story 1
the other side of the story 2
oxfam the agency working in sudan

(a google search on darfur will give countless number of them)

dew drops on a fresh green leaf

lets start by sharing a morning i would love to live everyday.
On a slightly cloudy day when the sun rays are just warm enough to make their presence felt.As the sun rises i wake up gently by the nudging of my little princess my daughter. I freshen up and take a long walk in the huge garden which bears flowers through out the year with dew drops on their tender petals and a fragrance so fresh that nothing can replace the calmness it provides. Trees so huge that the sun in the afternoon sky has to show it self to earth in bits and pieces in such a way that each ray of it looks like distinct feature of the garden.my destination is a stream with fresh blue water chilled enough to be refreshing and with a pace that keeps me afloat while the sun rays fill warmth in me . I turn into a silent observer going with the pace of nature listening to the chirping sounds of the awakening birds and the flowing stream and filling my senses with the smells of blooming flowers. With nothing to think or plan .when i am contended i head back to cook something very delicious then i head to the woods hiking to find new places to read a book or two while i experience mother nature to the extent .
love you,
chinmayi.s.k

hang over

hi anne,
how have u been??
ok now comes the worst part after all the fun and some passive time it is such a horrible phase.god save me i cant handle this when i "analyse" things and remember things and put the blame on myself in spite of the truth that every one is to blame equally now, i am going to start feeling that i was the one who ripped everything of and then how horribly i handle every situation and that i am a looser god... guilt is one major thing i always feel and the worst part i carry it through out my life i wish i can do some thing about this stupid thing [:)].i want to start afresh completely skip this phase what say ??
ok where do we begin a new page ... ok sure meet you there ... bye
love,
chinmayi.s.k

tips for how to loose a guy in ten days :)

hi anne,
how have u been??
the title sounds familiar doesn't it...the movie was great had a great laugh actually such stuff work believe me i just lost one :).. well never meant to loose him but cant help can i..well speaking from my experience you know what if u sound a bit despo you can drive away the guy pretty easily other great way to drive away is honesty it works trust me :).. i quite remember a lot of things today for the first time in my life i did not cry even a bit an achievement on its own. i am not carrying a log either i guess the warmth of my friends and their spirit has kind of rubbed me lot other things as well made a difference i guess like my goals, my dreams and a lot of stuff i learnt over the years. things like "if something is not meant to be it is simply best abandoned" and my grandpa's fav from the gita " whatever happens happens for the good" . i am so lucky to have had some one like him to guide a young girl. annes pls give me strength to pass this phase of life and continue to live life.
love
chinmayi.s.k

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hi anne,
how have u been??
i have been quite ok..
wondering what i am doing?? well this is a tribute to one guy i truly love and the guy who challenged my thinking and proved my belief about men wrong. I will consider myself lucky if he can be with me.I want to thank him for all that he gave me and all that he made me realize.I have never in my life changed for any one if there is some for whom i would love to be clay it has to be him.all the time i spent with him would be the best days of my life. i treasure them like the pearls of the ocean.
love,
chinmayi.s.k

listen to your heart

hi anne ,
how have you been??
life is such a continuous learning process. we learn something now the next moment would be to unlearn it and make a fresh start in a journey to learn new things exploring horizons we have never heard of. I learnt how to use my thinking and brain for anything i do in the process i think i somewhere started replacing my heart with it .started living my relationships with my brain(sounds confusing rite :)). well i myself did not know that until one of my friends told me to stop living my relationships with my brain and start living them through my heart.heart goes with the sync doesnt reason a lot probably that's one of the best ways to lead life.of course leading completely with your heart is a foolish thing to do but i think heart and so called gut many times helps us make the best decisions in life many a times in situations when our mind is indecipherable
love,
chinmayi.s.k

a habitual offender :)

hi anne,
how have you been??
i have been quite a person. dont know what you feel about it. but, it is i guess a integral part of me.god knows why i easily get bored i always keep hunting for excitement, some how don't feel like sticking to something for long. that is quite ok usually, today was quite a day mom was frowning for being so busy i was literally juggling between a lot of stuff it was fun. i went out with mom in the evening i took her on the giant wheel and pampered with all sorts of junk food.she loved it.i am so happy i could give her some quality time.the giant wheel is one of those things which excites me. The feeling of going over the edge taking risks and rising to heights and gracefully returning to base always gives me a high.i some how love to flirt with danger donno why :) but its good to be that.today was the limit i am not speaking of giant wheel do you know what i think i was feeling things i shouldnt think of, i have never thought that to be wrong i have always believed that its ok to love a person and also feel that you have stopped loving them i have done so many times ,when i was with a friend of mine all of a sudden i got a few vibes which should normally not be the case i donno why .
love,
chinmayi.s.k