hi anne,
how have you been? i have been ok dear
there is lots i have to tell you .you know the first time in my life i felt i have loved the father of my daughter.
today was one of those days when i felt so lovely when i looked at him i felt the maturity of a man i felt he is one guy who could handle me whatever happens he could a perfect husband.The beauty of his heart is enormous i don't think any one who would see it could not love him.i love him quite enough to wish him happy even if he will not be mine.i wish he could me mine.Those broad shoulders that generous heart it felt like i got everything i need just being around him.for the first time i felt i dont know if he can be mine but i wish he could at least be my daughters father. He would make the worlds most wonderful father.it was such a romantic feeling its so hard to describe my heart felt completed. i always wanted my daughter to have wonderful father something i never had i wanted her to think of her father as everything to feel the safety of a protector. the prime reason i choose never to marry and adopt was to give a child all that love she deserved in the world never let her miss anything.Anne do you remember my dream of having a husband who is just not namesake more importantly who can be the best father my daughter desired this is the guy.I will never get this guy i don't care for that i never expect love for me after all that i have seen but i really wish my daughter has a father like him.
i love him too much and would love him to be my husband but more importantly be my daughter's father i want to give her all that i missed in my life
love you,
chinmayi.s.k